There is no need to say

I liked study when I was a junior high school student.
Everyone praised me, but I didn't know the real reason.
I studied hard when I was a high school student.
I believed that I would find something priceless in college for no reason.

I yearned study when I was a college student.
I understood the worth of study, but my intuition told me that something which I had searched was out of school.
After graduating from college, I kept searching it.
But now I'm lost, and I just don't know what it is anymore.

When I look back the locus of my life, I can realize that every meeting and parting is just a coincidence.
It takes more than 20 years for me to understand it.
But if I tell it to someone, they maybe make a fool of me.

A few years ago, my father asked me the meaning of life, but I couldn't answer his question.
It was the first and last time when I couldn't answer his question.
But I'm sure that he realized it before his death.
There is no need to ask that question.
There is no need to answer that question.

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